56

That’s how many days were written for you.

I am at peace today. The world is as it should be, otherwise it would be different. I am ok with that right now. We were never meant to meet this side of eternity.

Thank you, Lord, for giving me peace today. Thank you for helping me see that You do not let us suffer in vain, but You will and already have used this for refining and edifying. Our hearts will never be the same. If You’re willing, I am ready.

This song has been on repeat this week. I think this is what God is saying to me today….

I Will Show You Love By Kendall Payne

I will show you love like you’ve never loved before
I will go the distance and back for more if you just say the word
‘Cause you will come alive again
Call the trying times your friend
Pain that you have suffered through
Never get the best of you
You will hope in something real
Won’t depend on how you feel
When you call my name, then I will answer, answer

Cause I am on your side
Though the wind and waves
Beat against your faith
You were on my mind
When the world was made
Trust in me my child,
Trust in me my child

Walk out on the water
You have no control
Scared of every failure
Sacrifice your soul, please let that go

Cause you have climbed an uphill road
You have worn a heavy load
You have cried through endless nights
Nearly giving up the fight
Watch your dreams like fallen stars
Heartache made you who you are
Looking back you see that I’ve always been there

Cause I am on your side
Though the wind and waves
Beat against your faith
You were on my mind
When the world was made
Trust in me my child,
Trust in me my child

Where you gonna hide, where you gonna hide from me?
Where you gonna go, where you gonna go that I can’t see?

Cause I have heard your cry
And it breaks my heart, for I love you so
I will never lie
This is not the end
There is still a hope

Cause I am on your side
Though the wind and waves
Beat against your faith
You were on my mind
When the world was made
Trust in me my child,
Trust in me my child

This whole time I have questioned where God was while I was losing my baby. Now I know…He was there, weeping with me.

Deep breath…

Amen.

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One response to “56

  1. I love you and I’m fully crying right now! Happy tears for your peace and the truth you found about God being by your side, and sad tears for your hurts that I never want people I love to go through! Love you!

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